Sunday, 7 October 2007

changes

this blog is no longer dedicated to my feelings towards someone I thought was special. He has shown me that I was wrong. He tried to blame me by saying he never promised me anything which is quite true he didn't. But when I have repeatedly told someone that I don't want to be a fuck buddy anymore is it really so unreasonable to expect that by continuing to see me he has accepted my wishes. By refusing to answer when I ask him how he feels he was allowing me to continue to let my feelings grow. Had he been honest we could have limited the fallout better.

I am now over it, I no longer have such deep feelings towards him, I see him only as a friend I chat with online just as we did for many months before. will we ever have sex again. I thought I had the answer to that one .........a great big NO WAY!!!

But now I have no answer, at present my intention is that the answer remains no, but when and if the subject comes up who knows. Maybe I have cleared my felings out enough to make it possible to have sex without emotion. But that seems a little too clinical to me right now.

Does he still want to continue having sex with me? a week ago I would have probably said maybe not. Now I think ........hes a man isn't he? emotion doesn't come into it .......it would just be business as usual as far as hes concerned (thats my guess).

4 comments:

having my cake said...

Until you can learn to fuck like a man, he will be a dangerous beast...

Emma said...

Aw LiR I know so much what you are going through, you have to be strong and walk away from this one for good i'm afraid, there will be more I can promise you...xxx

ronjazz said...

Of course you can learn to do that. You simply concentrate during the fuck on your own pleasure and not worry about anything else until the moment warrants it...just like the vast majority of guys. I'm sorry to say that; I do believe it. So find your enjoyment where you can and share your love and affection with those more worthy.

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