this blog is no longer dedicated to my feelings towards someone I thought was special. He has shown me that I was wrong. He tried to blame me by saying he never promised me anything which is quite true he didn't. But when I have repeatedly told someone that I don't want to be a fuck buddy anymore is it really so unreasonable to expect that by continuing to see me he has accepted my wishes. By refusing to answer when I ask him how he feels he was allowing me to continue to let my feelings grow. Had he been honest we could have limited the fallout better.
I am now over it, I no longer have such deep feelings towards him, I see him only as a friend I chat with online just as we did for many months before. will we ever have sex again. I thought I had the answer to that one .........a great big NO WAY!!!
But now I have no answer, at present my intention is that the answer remains no, but when and if the subject comes up who knows. Maybe I have cleared my felings out enough to make it possible to have sex without emotion. But that seems a little too clinical to me right now.
Does he still want to continue having sex with me? a week ago I would have probably said maybe not. Now I think ........hes a man isn't he? emotion doesn't come into it .......it would just be business as usual as far as hes concerned (thats my guess).
This Next Chapter Of My Life
1 week ago