bloggers are friends

Last night when I was going through my documents on this computer just seeing what is on here I found this tribute that I had forgotten about. I was written by one of my blog friends, he had written a piece about four special blog women not saying who they were but we knew. At some point later I had gone back to it and saved it in a word document. I am glad that I did as some months later he closed that blog. He has had other blogs since but is currently in his words 'having a sabbatical.' Any way this is how he described me .

You're one of the sweetest people I know. You go through so much adversity, still smiling. You're ever so discrete - annoyingly so, sometimes. You attract men, lots of them, no surprise there, but you're choosy enough to reject the ones that don't measure up. You're a true friend, always ready to talk, no hidden agenda. You're forgiving and tolerant. You write from the heart, holding nothing back. You revel in discovering your long-suppressed sexuality. You showed me something I always thought was a myth. You like me, probably more than I deserve.

then later last night as I was going through my email accounts I checked the junk box of the emails account that my blog comments go to and I found this email.

hey how r u?

i think you're one of the few people who sounds truly genuine

everyone puts on a front, i know i do it myself, but you come across so very real and kind too.

wasn't this such a lovely thing to say and this is from a new blogger friend.

I feel quite sad tonight, I have been in a strange mood all evening but as I visited a few of my blog friends I found yet another blogger saying goodbye. As I work my way down the list of blogs that I read more and more of the links are skipped as they are either closed or just not posting for a while. I know that all of the bloggers who have closed their blogs in recent weeks are people who I have become friends with outside of blogs, we exchange emails, IM or are Face book friends so we do have the means to continue our contact.

On a slightly more cheerful note I have been chatting to Thomas aka my Knight in Tarnished Armour. As always he makes me feel sexy and adored but there was a different feeling for me today. I felt very sad, chatting to Thomas just made me feel unhappy, I did the usual laughing and sending kisses along with the chat some of which was general chit chat but also the usual mutual admiration and sexual worship mostly from him. Chatting to Thomas made me miss Romeo even more than I did already. I adore Thomas (he was fantasizing about what it would be like if he and I were married), but I feel so much more for Romeo and it hurts that I have not heard from him since last week. I know I will hear from him but I just don't know when. I am getting worried now though, when he text me that he was ill he thought it was flu. But I can't help thinking he must be very ill if he can't manage to to text or call me again. ............Yes I know what you are thinking. Sometimes I wonder if you are right and I am wrong but there is something that tells me otherwise. I have to trust him I have to believe but it isn't always easy. I have given my self a promise that if there is no progress soon I shall call it a day, as much as I don't want to.

One of those days

I woke up tired ............huh I went to bed at 9pm last night so why was I so tired this morning?

Today was going to be a big day for me.

Not a big day in that anything special was going to happen just several small things that I don't do any other time.

my plan was this:

leave work at lunch time (Boss has awarded me 2 x half days in return for working longer hours while Wayne was off sick for two weeks).

On the way home collect skirt that was being repaired.

Go home have cooked lunch for a change

spend an hour blogging out of normal hours whilst waiting for my groceries to arrive (this is the first time I ahve ordered my groceries online) I had booked a delivery slot between 2pm - 4pm.

5pm appointment for very expensive hair cut/colour.

So this is what actually happened.

I was late leaving work because I ended up getting caught answering the phone and getting delayed because then I ahd to investigate and write up the customer's complaint.

the dry cleaner's couldn't find my skirt

my groceries didn't turn up ...............I have a half prepared chicken casserole prepared, just waiting for vegetables
It turns out that I didn't click the final button to finalise the transaction so I ahve now booked it for friday evening.

As I left the house to go to hairdresser (by now I figured that I would end up with orange hair with my luck) I fell over and cut my knee twisted my ankle and grazed my hands whilst making a hole in my new tights. lucky my skirt is long enough to hide the hole.

well this is where my luck changed...........I got my hair coloured lots of brown weaved in using foils s that my roots will blend in better and I can let the colour grow out without it showing. I now have whispy white strands at the front which I quite like. So after 2 hours of having my hair treated and cut I emerged with a tidier version of the style I had walked in with but now nearer to my natural colour.

Following this I went to visist my mum to show her my early birthday present from her. She likes the new look and took a couple of pictures for me as well as giving me enough cash to cover all but what I would have paid for a normal cut.

Whilst I was with my mum I got a phone call from Romeo.......he won't be able to get back for my birthday as he is off on more travels. He was about to go to the airport as we were speaking. He will be in touch when he can but most of the places he works have their own internet systems which won't recognise his laptop. I can understand that as our system at home won't recognise DC's laptop.

I had a long chat with mum about various things then headed off to do some much needed grocery shopping and getting home to watch the second episode of this year's The Apprentice.

Overall it has been one of those days where everything goes wrong but I have been laughing my way through

Oh and he is crazy in love, he doesn't need me now, he can't eat, can't sleep and wants to shout it from the roof tops that he is in love............he is even reconsidering his thoughts on getting married again

Before you get all excited I am not referring to Romeo although he told me at the weekend that he can't believe how strong his feelings for me are. No the man who is in love is none other than my final fling that never happened and now won't................Sammy