Tagged

I have been tagged by Not so Fat Controller



WHAT ARE YOU READING?

The rules:

1. Pick up the nearest book.

2. Open to page 123.

3. Find the fifth sentence.

4. Post the next three sentences.

5. Tag five people



Ok I have not yet begun reading this book but it was the earest to hand.



Testament of Friendship by Vera Britain, I couldn't find a picture of this book but here is one of the others from this series.

The six personalities chosen - frederick II, St Francis of Assisi, Joanna of Naples, St Catherine of Siena, Savonarola and Leonardo da Vinci - were united by the parts that they had played in the medieval struggle between the secular and religious ideas of the Summum Bonum. We had spent many hours of our Italian holiday searching for pictures and stories to illustrate heir careers.

Our exertions were justified, for the first address proved Winifred to be both a born lecturer and an adornment to any public platform.

now I tag Jeff, Pixie, Mei Del, Wyld Cat and Mulder

After I wrote my post last night about Lotto and Romeo, I went to visit Harvey, he needed my help again!! He rang me at work yesterday begging for my help with some home work he needed to do on the computer for a course he is doing for work. I agreed to meet him at his place about 9pm saying that I wouldn't stay long as I had a date with my computer. I had jst left his place having done all I could to help him, when I got a text from Romeo. I didn't manage t get back online last night then this morning I couldn't get the internet working. This evening I had just got home and was sending a text to Romeo when it got diverted to 'drafts' because as I was send my text I got one from Romeo. I just don't know how we keep doing that, I had not heard from him all day. We carried on texting for the next hour then it went silent. But just after 8pm my phone began ringing and it ws Romeo which was a really unexpected surprise. He is back in the near European city he seems to spend most of his time in. We chatted for about 20 mins before I had to go out and I heard him arriving at his hotel. He says he still has to stay there for a few more days but he will ring me again in few days.

Following a comment last night by Mei Del saying that Romeo ought to realise what a lucky guy he is, I sent him an email telling him that he should realise how lucky he is as there are other men who are interested in me but it is him that I want. I'm sure it can't hurt to let him know that there are other men around who are more readily available than he is, keep him on his toes as it were. After our text conversation today I was a little concerned that so much of our chats have become sexual. I don't want a repeat of what happened with Forest, I was trying to email Romeo about my worries when the laptop battery went flat. But after our telephone conversation, (I didn't mention my worries), I felt a lot happier that he is interested in me not just sex.

What's a girl to do!

Sometimes I think I have been waiting for Romeo for ever. It has been 2 months since he went off on his business trip just a week after I found him. It has been two months full of emails, text messages, IM conversations and a few telephone conversations, interspersed with periods of silence. During that first silence I was beside myself with anxiety, but since then the silences have been easier because I know that I am secure, that we both have such deep feelings for each other. The only thing missing is to meet for real. I knew within days of finding Romeo that I didn't need to look for any other man. I closed down my profiles on the dating sites, or put messages on them saying that I am no longer looking as I have found a man who makes my heart sing. I have never done this before, I ahve always kept my options open so this was a big step for me.

I have stayed in contact with some of my male friends and they all know that Romeo is in the picture. Before I found Romeo I had been talking to Lotto about the possibility of meeting him at his hotel where he stays sometimes when he is on call for his job. I have never taken it further than just chat and I never make any promises. Yesterday he started to chat and he was getting me quite turned on. I started thinking that perhaps I should go and meet him again after all it has been 2 months and I still don't know when I will meet Romeo. We talked about meeting although I still didn't make any promises. Even though I was feeling that I need to see Lotto even if it is just to blow a few cobwebs away, I just couldn't help feeling that I would be betraying Romeo even though we have never met.

Last night Romeo sent me a few text messages talking about being together very soon. He won't tell me when, just teases me more each time I ask. He text me quite early this morning then nothing until I was bombing it down the motorway on my way home...........ffs I had to wait half an hour to find out what he said.

when I got home we were exchanging more text teasing each other and he still won't tell me when!! I went online to check my mail etc and found this..............

i have been chatting to a couple of ladies and pissed them off because i dont want to meet them. just to let you know i only want to meet you - seriously. thanks for the chat yesterday, you got me going again as always. really hope to meet you soon.

which turned into this

ladyinred says:
flatterer

Lotto says:
well a guy can give a compliment when one's due
ladyinred says:
thank you..........accepted
Lotto says:
good. i like your pics, il ike the one you sent yesterday and you turn me on just writing to me - thought i'd let you know
ladyinred says:
awww hugs and a chaste kiss
ladyinred says:
you turned me on too
Lotto says:
with tongues i hope
ladyinred says:
lmao
Lotto says:
i thought about your pics last night and was very rude - i always do - another compliment where am i getting them from
ladyinred says:
hee hee hee
ladyinred says:
im not complaining

But I still won't meet him because its my Romeo I want.

How to tease a teaser

Hi how is my lovely teasing lady? Our time will soon come, so save your energy because you will need it all plus some. You will be sighing for days. Thinking if what I will do to you. Romeo xxxx

Build yourself for the multiple ........ when we meet xxxx

Does this mean you have an idea when you will be back or are you giving me a taste of my own medicine by teasing me?

mmmmmmmmmmmm ....... something to think about. But just get yourself really warm for me xxxxx

Thats not fair! Do I have to put on my petulent little girl act, stamp my feet and sqweam and sqweam until I am sick before you tell me. Btw you do a pretty good job of making me warm with no effort on my part. xxxxxx

Perhaps he is just teasing me but I think at last he will be home soon !! He has never sent me text like these before. But knowing my luck he will be back when I have other things to do. Like the Rotary Quiz on friday that I agreed to about 2 months ago. Or in a few weeks the party that has been put back several times already.

Earlier in the day I sent him a text that just simply said........

I **** you

I thought he could insert his own word here, it could be any one of several

Like, love, lust, want, need. I thought of lots more at the time but now my mind has gone blank

tears of laughter

What was the last thing you cried about? Laughed about? Got angry about?

I just pinched this from Mel

it has got me thinking about the answers.

The last time I cried was about the lack of money to keep my home warm and food in the kitchen to feed my kids. what makes me cry the most about this is that my son earns almost as much as I do but can never afford to pay me for his keep or keep up with his own debts. I have promised myself that the next time he comes home with a new tattoo or new clothes and declares he has no money then I shall pack his bags for him. Apart from the money issues we get on really well and I love him to bits and I know he loves me too. He is just so irresponsible when it comes to money. I think he has had me in tears more than anyone else in the past year. I don't expect my son to help me to pay all the household bills but I would like him to pay something towards the food he eats and the electricity he uses, a bit towards the council tax would be good too. He asked me last night if he could get a new contract phone and pay it through my bank account as his doesn't have the facility for direct debits or standing orders. I told him no, not until he has proved he can be trusted to make the payments and starts to pay his keep regularly. I made it quite clear that I wouldn't be in the financial state I am in if he paid his way. I have mentioned a few times in he last week hat I might get a part time job to top up my salary even if it is only for a few months. Even the thought that I might have to do this doesn't seem to bother him. He has just assumed that that is what mothers do. He hasn't offered to do anything to help around the house either.

The last time I laughed now this is harder to answer because I had not really thought about it. I laugh a lot, so it is not something special to be laughing. I laugh as I read blogs, I laugh at the things my kids do and say, I laugh at work, I laugh when I chat with Romeo. I am just a basiclly happy person. Even in the middle of a crisis I will find something to laugh about. It's just the way I am, I believe my ability to laugh at anything helped me to get through my cancer and also my divorce. Perhaps it is because I have never had things easy that I find it easy to laugh. If I didn't laugh I would be crying and I don't do crying. It takes a lot to make me cry but very little to make me laugh.

The last time I got angry I don't remember the last time I was really angry unless it was last summer when I was badly hurt. I had been telling this man all along that I didn't want to be a sex object, that I wanted our relationship to be more than sex. 5 months it took him to admit that that was all he wanted from me. The more he said the more it hurt the angrier I got that someone I adored could be so blatant about using me the way he did. The more he said to excuse himself the cheaper he made me feel, the dirtier I felt, he made me feel worse than SF had done which was some going. But incredibly we are still friends although we will never meet again, I couldn't put myself through the emotions that would bring.

Other than that I have been cross a number of times but not really angry. Something that did make me cross on Friday was my colleague. He uses all kinds of tricks to avoid answering the phone everyone knows this but he seems oblivious that we all notice. But on Friday the phone rang and as I was in the middle of something I let it ring so he picked it up. I could hear him saying hello, hello. I could clearly hear the woman at the other end also saying hello can you hear me? after a while she said 'I am putting the phone down and try again.' I did say that I had been able to hear her as clear as day. The phone rings again but he makes no attempt to answer it so I did. The same woman asks if I can hear her as the person who answered just now couldn't. Yes I could hear her very well no problem at all just as I knew there wouldn't be a problem. After I had taken her order and put the phone down my colleague tried to excuse himself by saying that when he had answered her the line was bad and kept breaking up as though there was another call coming through. I could not believe his audacity. It is a good thing he is leaving on Friday as I would have had to say something about this behaviour. I have been turning a blind eye to his tricks from the day I started this job, but since he handed in his notice he has got s much worse.

all these men

I am afraid that I was unable to prod Romeo into adding the next part of First as he wasn't able to get a connection. However he did send me this unexpected text at lunch time today

Hi dearest LiR, Sorry not to speak yesterday I could not connect to the web. you are in my thoughts and my body craves your touch. Would love to be there with you right now making love. Speak soon Romeo xxxx

I am hoping with every fibre of my being that he is able to get a connection tonight. When he sent this text I was in the shower. I always do a lot of thinking in there, perhaps it is the hot water cascading over me that washes away the murk leaving me to think clearly. I was thinking about how much I want Romeo to come home so that we can spend some precious time together. I was analysing why I want him so much. I don't need him to make me happy, I am not feeling needy. It isn't as though I am incomplete without him. The only way I could think of it was as a very lovely iced cake. I tried to describe this to him in a text so he probably just realised that I am off my rocker. I thought of it this way.

The base of the cake is the past 40+ years of my life where I became the person that I am.

The jam in the middle was the last few years of finding myself again and playing the field.

The top part of the cake is me now and in the future, being more confident and happy.

Romeo is the icing on my cake and I am just hoping that I am blessed with a deep layer of soft icing rather than a dusting of icing sugar .

Today I found myself in the bedroom of another man. Now now minds out of the gutter, I was hanging up the two new cardigans that my mother had bought for my grandfather (94 next month). My mother has been poorly for the last two days and as I have not been to see my grandfather for a while I said I would go. Every weekend I promise myself I will go, but I find it hard to fit in at a time when he won't be either eating or asleep. But today I made myself go to see him. When I arrived sure enough he was asleep but the lady in the wheelchair next to him told him he had a visitor. It always amazes me that he can be asleep when I arrive but as soon as he wakes up he sees it is me (even though I have not been for weeks) is all smiles and knows immediately who I am. Now I am only half his age and I am usually a little groggy when woken from a sleep.

It was very heartening to find the old man in good humour and seemingly well. When we first moved him to the home where he is now back in December he was like a little lost soul. It felt rather like leaving your child at school for the first time only this was an elderly man and he will be living here for the rest of his life. He had not been able to choose the place himself and had to trust our judgement. The home where he had been for 15 months could nolonger look after him as he was becoming too frail and they don't have the staff to give him the care he now needs. We have now moved him to a nursing home in our town, he was an hour away at the other home. It must be very daunting to move to a place you have never seen, having to get ued to new people new routines at that age. But he does seem to have settled in well and he is looking healthy. I think apart from the use of his legs he misses having someone sensible to talk to especially now he is too frail to hold a newspaper and his eyesight and hearing are not great. I think this was also my first visit when he has not told me that 'I won't be here long'. It wouldn't surprise me if he was around for a good while yet.

Later this evening I had another surprise. As I was sitting here making a few long overdue amendments to my blog DC came into my room for a chat. We discussed the money situation both mine and his. Then as he was leaving the room he gave me a hug and kissed my cheek. I thought those days had gone years ago. Then about an hour later ET came in for a chat and began stroking my hair!! what have I done to deserve all this extra attention from my boys.

I just got another award this time from Mulder. He has nominated me, Nitebyrd and VBF as his three favourite bloggers isn't that sweet of him especially after I am so naughty teasing him the way I do.

is it good?

While I am sitting here waiting for Romeo to come online I am listening to some of my music when it reached this song which ET sent to me, as he thought I would like it, several weeks ago. Every time I hear this song it makes me think about Romeo. Yes I know it doesn't take much to get my mind into that particular space. I really want to share this with Romeo but I shall wait. Anyway I thought whilst I was waiting I would share it with my blogger friends. I hope you like it as much as I do. I know I am a bit behind the times and many of you probably know the singer and his songs much better than I do.

Some of you may be surprised to find that I have done a few new posts on my other blogs. I am trying to keep my creative writing to Lady in Red Writes rather than posting it here. I have not been writing much creatively for many months but I am beginning to find more inspiration. I was chatting to my boss today and I mentioned that I am considering taking on a part time job a couple of evenings or a few hours at the week ends to top up my salary. She told me that I would be better off concentrating on my writing. She really admires the writing I have allowed her to see. This would not be the solution to my money problems in the short term but could be in the longer term however it is the short term I am most concerned with. Perhaps I should follow DJ's advice and writ a book of short stories as I don't think I have a whole novel inside my head at the moment although you never know what inspiration I may get in the future.

Having said that I am trying to keep most of my creative writing on LiR writes I have written a piece you might enjoy which is on Battle to find myself.

I am completely stunned!! when I was divorcing SF he kept saying he didn't want to be a 'weekend father' (I thought this would be an improvement). He lives just ten minutes walk away with his g/f (Village Idiot) and her mother and daughter. Ok so there is an injunction stopping him from coming to our house. He has invited our boys to his new home once and that was at my suggestion (lunch on boxing day). Now every Thursday is his day off from work. It is the school holidays, perfect opportunity to spend some quality time with his sons. So he arranged to take the boys to the cinema in the city and lunch at a chinese restaurant. Yes he took them to the city by train. (He has never applied to get his licence back after he was done for being 4 x over the limit). He paid for them to watch the film of their choice while he and his new family went for lunch at the restaurant. Apparently the boys had some chocolate for lunch and the offer of some money for a take away in the evening (it wasn't forthcoming). Will he be in the running for 'father of the year' I don't think so.

First

I have written the following and asked Romeo to add the next paragraph before I finish the piece. It will be interesting to see what he comes up with.

The leather of the sofa squeaks as you shift your weight, I feel your arm snake around my shoulder as you pull me to you. My head now resting on your shoulder as I gaze up into those, deep pools of hazel, that mirror mine so well. This is the first time we have been so close. The first time we have touched, the first time I have seen for myself this lovely half smile that I have grown to adore. As our eyes meet your head dips down towards my waiting lips as my neck stretches up towards you.

The scent of you is so heady in this already over heated room, the shocks run through me as our lips brush oh so softly, barely touching yet sending spasms through my heart, my mind and my groin. You kiss my lips again but more intently this time, my lips part to accept the very tip of your tongue as it passes over my lower lip. I feel the heat inside me rising as I melt against you. My free hand reaches out to touch your chest. The more our kisses deepen the more my fingers inch inside your mid blue shirt, a slight twist of my finger and a button pops open allowing more access.

Your arm has dropped from my shoulder to my waist as you slide a fingertip inside the waist band of my skirt tracing soft circles on my skin.

lucky girl

I am such a lucky girl. Not so very long ago I was reading nitebyrd's blog when she introduced us, her readers to a few new blogs. One of these was 'The grass is always greener' by the rascal that is Dazzed and Confused now known at nitebyrd's instigation as Mulder. Not long after this Mulder or D & C as I was calling him mentioned that one of nitebyrd's blogger friends had written a testimonial for nitebyrd. I dutifully headed over to read what Vent had to say. I loved his blog and go back over and over again to comment and then I go back and comment again. He is such a cheerful and chatty fellow I just love to keep going back there. we have chatted about wine, pets, disco fever, hair styles and of course his love of squirrels to name just a few topics.

Today Vent has been given an award The Good Chat Award

He has received this award from Akelamalu. I must confess I ahve never visited her blog but I have seen her comments on other blogs. This is something I must remedy soon. Vent has of course now passed on this award to six others including the lovely funny nitebyrd, the refreshingly bright and vibrant VBF and one of my new friends the sensitive, witty and brilliant writer Jeff B. So imagine my surprise as I scrolled down and found that Vent has given this award to me too.

Now I have to pass the award on so who should I choose

well nitebyrd has been chosen by Vent so has VBF

Katy has a wonderful way of making you feel like you just pull up a chair and sit down to be entertained by her wonderful humour and fantastic photos. She is warm, funny and real.

Pixie my honary sis.......she is such a bad bad bad woman she missed my birthday and why ? because she was too busy celebrating her own birthday and writing deep posts about how we can change.

Vi one of my longest blogging friends, she lives life to the full then calls her life dull

Emma a lovelywoman who has had a hard time but is coming through the otherside and now she is embarking on a romance to equal my own. I wish you both luck and happiness Em.

Ro my new friend who appears up for the challenge of answering every single comment I ahve left on his blog in the last week and as I am going through every post since he began his blog thats a lot of comments so far.

Now I know you are all wanting to know whats happening in my fairytale. I didn't heare from Romeo over the weekend but he text me today whilst I was at work. I replied asking him if his day was satisfactory. 'it is now I have heard from you xx' came the reply.

Later more text and then an IM chat. he just keeps proving to me over and over again how lovely he is. I had to ask him if he is real as I think I dreampt him up. But he assures me he is real. He is my lion among men.

Collecting things from other blogs

I had another award from VBF after I answered her meme on her blog.

Isn't she clever to make this.

It looks like I am collecting things see what I found waiting for me on Emma's blog

I have been tagged by Ro who is a blogger I have only recently begun to read. Thanks very much chum!! this is a Meme about sex so have posted it on Battle so as not to embarrass those of my friends who are not interested in this.

But weeks ago I was tagged by VBF to do a Meme but I had not got around to doing it so here it is.

Seven Random Facts about ME!!

1. For a while I was the chair person of our Town Football Club's Youth Division. Thre were 11 teams 8 boys teams and 3 girls teams.ranging from Under 10's to Under 16s. Whilst I was The Club Secretary Prior to being the Chair, I personally knew every child there and their parents. Less than a season after I resigned the club had folded. The people running it after I left didn't have a clue.

2. I experienced my first hangover (which lasted for 3 days) when I was on my French Exchage with the school. I turned 15 during the 2 weeks we were there. On the coach tavelling out there one of the boys had dared me to drink as much as him. He got drunk I didn't. So when we met up later in the week (we were not supposed to see our friends while we were there, but the french kids were friends so we did meet up). I remember we spent a whole day in this hut, lots of booze and smoking,Jimmi Hendrix and Santana playing on screen. By the time we got back to my exchange friend's (we detested each other) aparment I was out of it. I was then stuckin bed ill for three days. I was still drunk for the whole of the journey home.

3. I have smaller feet than most women. I take between a size 3 (36) or a size 4 (37) UK size (european I think). I have often had people comment on how small my feet are. This doesn't help when I want to buy shoes most adult shoes start at size 5. I can buy my shoes from the children's department (which are tax exempt) but as you may remember I like my high heels. Once many years ago I bought a pair of black shoes to wear to London for a social event. The heel broke but when I went back to the shop they didnt ahve any other suiable shoes in my size so they had to give me my money back.

4. I was bullied at school when I was 15. One of the girls decided to bully me because my dad was standing for election for the local council. This went on for months until one day I had enough and took an overdose of out of date asprins. It didn'twork and next day I we into school and when she began to bully me when I was on my own I fought back then went to find my teacher who happened to be with the head master. (princple) She never bullied me again.

5. I am a direct decendant of the man who owned the company that invented the toy balloon. When my mother was researching the family tree we discovered that my father's great grandad JG Ingram owned the patent for the toy balloon. I had grown up knowing that the family had owned a factory near Chigwell in Essex that manufactured rubber medical appliances and hot water bottles.

6. I have only ever flown once and that was for a day trip to lapland to see Santa 3years ago. we left home at 5am to get to the airport for a flight at 8am and arrived back home just after midnight. It was a lot of money for one day but it was so worth it. I will never forget the exhilaration of travelling at speed on a skiddoo across the frozen lake in the dark at 11am with snow coming down. Seeing my son and his little cousin playing atmaking snow angels was awesome too as was the Ice palace where even the tables and seats were carved out of ice.

7. I am totally in love with a man I ahve never met. Anyone who reads this blog knows about my Romeo. we have been wanting to get together for two months but his work has kept him out of the country for all but 2 days since 21 st February. Right now he is 5,400 miles away. Other times he is closer only a few hundred miles away but still on the continent so he might just as well be thousands of miles away. The lovely thing about this is that he feels the same way.

The best yet

Today started out like any other day getting up at 5.50am getting ready for work leaving the boys asleep as there is no school or college for two weeks. I ahd official permission to be late for work today as I was stopping at the hypermarket on the way not just to buy cakes and fruit to take in to the office which like many other work places it is the tradition to take in cakes on your birthday. I was also detailed to buy some flowers for the office (two bunches of carnations). mid morning the room rang out with 'only you' it was a text from Romeo (the first for 2 weeks as we have been chatting online instead).work wise it was very quiet at the office today. My boss literally ordered me out of the door at lunch time. It turned out that we had too may flowers so I was told to take the left overs home (they are now at my mum's).



I went straight to my mother's from work as I had to collect something apparently. A quick lunch and we were about to leave when her fresh meat delivery arrived. Most of this she was giving to us so we dropped it round to my house on the way to wherever we were going. The boys were not pleased to see me, I was too early for the welcome they were planning. So I left them to it. As mother drove I was trying to figure out where we were going. The Garden centre, nope, B & Q for some plants, nope, ah it must be the electrical store, yes. So like the good daughter that I am I follow into the store.

I am to choose a dvd player. (only my mother could think of buying me a new expensive HD dvd player for xmas (now hooked up to the wide screen tv in the living room)and another dvd player for my birthday). When I don't have a tv in my room!! I chose the smallest one which was also the cheapest as I didn't want this new intrusion in my room to take up too much space. Back to mother's for tea and cream scones by this time I ahve exhange a half dozen text with Romeo who tells me that his day is

'hectic but with time to think of you xx'


Finally around tea time I set off home armed with pizza for the boys and the ingredients for my favourite home made chilli for dinner. I arrive to a chorus of 'happy birthday' from my three younger boys, a couple of home made cards, a living room that has not only been tidied up but vacuumed too and the strong smell of vanilla. They had lit a couple of my vanilla scented candles and my oil burner (they just used the vanilla drops no water!) There was also a chocolate birthday cake.


Years ago I bought a wall bracket for a portable tv which I had intended to put in the boys room but there was no suitable wall space so it as still in its box. Here is OJ fitting it to my wall. (He is my man of the house even though he is not the eldest of my boys).

Here is the bracket fitted and complete with spare portable from the boys room.

I feel like the luckiest mum in the world with everything my boys have done for me today. It all means so much more than if they had just gone out and bought me something. That and the unexpected text messages from so far away and I have had the best birthday yet.