I love you

Next week I have a day off from work,

I wish I could say that the plan is to spend the day with Romeo

I wish I could say that I was going to spend the day shopping

I wish I could say I was just going to relax all day

However

I am glad to say that I shall be spending my day pushing a wheelchair around our local Military (former) Hospital

I am glad to say that my day will be spent supporting my mum as she has x-rays, blood tests etc

I am glad to say that on Monday 20th October my mum will be going back into hospital to have her knee replacement redone.

I would like to say that they can guarantee that this time the operation will be a success.

I can only hope that this time my mum will be on crutches for weeks not months

I can only hope that this time my mum will be free of pain for the first time since her original operation in January 2007

I can only hope that this operation will give my lovely mum her life back.

Today I did something that I don't do as often as I should. I phoned my mum just to tell her that I love her. I frequently tell my sons that I love them but I don't often tell my mum that I love her. So from today I promise to tell her more often. Her reply was that she doesn't tell me she loves me either but she does. It just hasn't been the done thing in the family I grew up in, but I have always told my children that I love them. I believe that the most important thing in a child's life is that they know they are loved. But it is important for everyone young or old to know they are loved.

when was the last time you told someone that you love them and who was it?

Oh and just to prove that this is me and not some alien life form who has taken over my blog. Only I could be this stupid................. sitting in my bath this morning, I had an itch on my shoulder blade just where I couldn't quite reach. so what did I do, I looked around and picked up the only thing I could think to use to scratch my itch......... WARNING if you are squeamish stop reading NOW.......................

Who else would be stupid enough to use a razor !!! yes thats right I used a bloody razor to scratch my itch. The second I touched my back the safety cover flipped off and I succeeded in cutting myself open. Strangely I soon forgot about my itch.

why

why is it that when I am away from my computer I come up with all sorts of things that I simply must blog.

but sat in front of my computer my mind goes blank.

I guess thats a bit like my current life really

lots of ideas and lots of choices but what do I end up doing?

very little!!

I go to work,

I cook, clean and shop for the boys,

I chat to some friends but not nearly as much as I used to do.

I write but not nearly as much as I had been doing

I blog but nothing like the amount I had become accustomed to doing

I go to the gym but not as often as I would like

I taxi my kids around

I dream

I make myself promises

I am content

but not satisfied

I think I am getting old

my eyes are begining to be affected

Have had my reading glasses for about 18 months but rarely use them unless my eyes are tired or I have a headache.

the last few days I have found myself peering at print from very close up to see what it says

today I have on my glasses for the first time in ages

I have done a couple of stupid things in the last few days

one I received a message on msn from one of my friends it gave a link showing my email address saying this looks familiar. I thought it looked dodgy but after a while of ignoring it curiosity got the better of me and I clicked on it. Nothing seemed to happen but I did notice after a while that chat windows were opening and closing rapidly. I soon realised I had licked on a virus. By this time it had been sent from my computer to some of my friends. I turned mine off and did a system restore. It appeared to be ok. Yesterday OJ was having a few problems so he tried to uninstall msn then reinstall he also did repeated system restores. It doesn't seem to have affected the pc in any way other than every now and then the mouse freezes and a couple of chat window flash open then its back to normal. As far as I can tell only a fe of my friends have been getting these messages. One or two people I have not spoken to in ages have said hello which has prompted m to have a clear out of my msn contacts. I have cleared out anyone who I either don't remember who they are or I have had them blocked long term or I just have had no contact with for many months. I have now reduced my contacts down from 145 to 81. There are still some there that I don't want to come back to haunt me.

The other thing that I really should have given more thought to was the ATM situation. If I had been thinking straight I could have given DC a cheque to pay for his Tyres and exhaust then I wouldn't have needed to go to the ATM and my PIN would still be ok and I would have access to my money. The other stupid thing about that was that I deliberately went to that ATM as the one closer to my home is unreliable and eats peoples card so I wont use it.

during this past week I had an opportunity to be a par of a threesome where both myself and the other woman would be the Master's slaves and who he would take great delight in spanking. I backed out of this. the idea had been good but I don't want to get involved in this.

I have also had many chats in recent weeks with Lotto. He wants me to meet him again soon.