Busy

It has been busy at work this week, well not really busy it has been quite quiet as it is the last week of the month. But there is still lots to do catching up on the things we can't do the first three weeks of the month. I have found it particularly tough this week because I am still babysitting our newest colleague. She is making progress but it does still mean that I have to check her work as well as doiing mine. Our boss is away at Trade Show and yesterday BG was off sick and Bob is busy tying up loose ends clearing his desk ready for a weeek off work.

I have been so tired by the end of the day that it has been as much as I can manage to read a few blogs each night let alone write a post.

Yesterday I was so tired driving home that I could hardly stay awake which was scary. When I got home I lay down and slept until 8pm. When I woke up ET and OJ were standing over me, they had brought me a plate of sausages and the two end bits from a garlic bread stick. Before I woke up I was having a very vivid dream.

I had to drive overnight to see Rae where I would collect among other people SF's best friend from when I first met them (it was really the best friend I fancied not SF). Trixie and one or two others but I don't know who. I dropped Trixie off at her place then SF's friend at his place in Kent before going home in time to get to work. But I seemed to be worried about having such a short nap before I began my journey and I was wasting valuable sleeping time trying to work out how I was going to keep myself awake to drive so far during the night after a long day at work. How was I going to stay awake at work next day.

Obviously this dream was because I was so tired during my drive home from work. Although work has been tiring today I wasn't as bone tired as yesterday but I am still planning to have a well earned early night for a change.

I have not managed to get around to all my favourite blogs and those I have read I have not commented on all of them.

Quiet Lady

Sorry I have been a bad blogger

In the last couple of weeks life has got in the way of blogging. Mostly that has been due to falling asleep but that also includes apathy. Not rushing to my blog to write a post or reply to comments. I think a lot of it is just being very tired all the time. I do read and appreciate the comments left here but just don't have the energy or the words to reply. I have not even been to visit all my favourite blogs, don't ask me why because I don't know the answer.

I am writing this quick post now mainly because I am off out again tonight for another wedding. So that is one funeral and two weddings in 8 days.

I am I guess feeling down because I have not heard from Romeo (his last text sunday before last telling me he was thinking about me). I am not worried or fretting that there is anything wrong between us. I am quite confident on that score. But I miss him so much. I have been through the various stages of being frantic that a day then two passed with no word, the need to be in contact everyday. The anxiety of how often should I text email him when I am getting no response. I am now in the calm space where I just wait th here from him, I am not constantly checking my phone or email. But in the evenings I find myself gazing at his picture willing him to be in contact. I open my phone to send him a text but have nothing to say. There are only so many times/ways of texting 'I miss you' without being like a broken record. I feel sad, alone, unloved, distant. But I know that when he returns he will let me know hes back and it will be as though this distance never was.

I am busy at work and tired at home, I am not just sitting around moping. When I have caught up with sleep and have the energy I am going to crack on with more writing. Anyway, I am still here just being quiet in the corner where I am not intruding on the world. Give me a few days and I shall bounce back all bright and breezy as usual.

Really Tired

Not going to post much tonight as I am really tired.

It has been hectic at work the last few days, the phones have been playing up. Monday they were completely out for about 3 hours which led to Posh Bird getting all calls diverted to the sales office mobile. I then had this mobile glued to my ear for an hour as I tried to answer as many calls as I could many. At the end of each call there was a list of missed calls. Many of the calls were fax machines as customers attempted to send through their orders. Mind you it did mean that I got to chat to some customers who normally fax their orders.

Then when the telephone lines came back on it was a game of catch up for the rest of the afternoon. There has only been two of us most of the time, with me being the only one doing the job all the time. Yesterday and today the phones have cut out intermittently but only for a few minutes at a time.

Tomorrow I am going to be completely on my own. I think it will be a long day.

So now I am going to my room to watch The Apprentice and get an early night.

Tired

Tired

I am tired to the core

tired of fighting

tired of cleaning

tired of hearing 'Call of Duty' being played online on PS2

tired of nagging

tired of defending my romance to other men

tired of my money worries

tired of wondering when will it get better

tired of just scraping by each week

tired of feeling tired

tired of waiting

so tired I'm going to bed at 9.30pm on a friday

its good

This week is continuing to be good

I had intended to write about whats going on but I ahve been so tired tonight that it is now too late so I shall have to fill you in tomorrow.

In the meantime just know that life is good even if it is tiring

Pixie I am thinking about you and keeping my fingers crossed

Vi I am glad things are going well for you the same for Emma

Cat I hope things improve for you soon

Innocent I am glad you have cheered up

everyone else I just hope life is treating you well right now and I shall get round to commenting on your blogs again soon if I havent already.

love to you all

oh and Pete hope you start feeling better soon xx