Honestly

The lovely DJ Kirkby has awarded me this honesty award. Perhaps she is under the illuion that I am honest.

Below are the guidelines when winning the Honest Scrap award:

1. List 10 honest things about yourself (try to make it interesting, even if you have to dig deep!)

2. Pass the award on to 10 bloggers

1. I had said that I would go to a football match this morning but when I got the text saying 'stay under your duvet the match is off' I have done just that.....stayed under my duvet. (it is -5 this morning!!)

2. When my boys were young I was treasurer of their playgroup, I am not very good with money but I enjoyed the challenge. I also enjoyed the power of calculating what the staff pay rises should be as well as the fees we charged the parents even if this power also scared the heck out of me.

3. When I was 19 I worked for an Insurance Company in London. We underwrote a policy for something called an 'Intelligent Pig' I believe it was a heavy Machinery but it was the inspiration for my first attempt at writing a children's story of the same name.

4. Sometimes I am to honest, my honesty can get me into trouble, I can be tactless at times in my honesty.

5. I have always been extremely shy. As a teenager I was always the shyest in my group of friends but strangely I was often the bravest too. If the rest of them were too scared to do something or go somewhere I would do it. Perhaps I have always been unbalanced.

6. I am even now very sceptical about the psychic world including tarot and horoscopes yet I find myself turning to these things in times of stress. I do though believe in fate and find myself noticing 'signs' more and more as I get older. Particularly in the medium of songs, especially songs that I have always liked but never really noticed the meaning behind the words until I hear it out of the blue at a time when those words mean something to me.

7. I love to write but I am often too lazy. I tend to write short stories because I need to write the whole piece in one sitting. If I have to go back to something the next day I rarely do. I have a folder full of projects I have started but don't have the drive to complete. Perhaps there will come a time when I have no distractions when I can sit down and complete some of them.

8. I love my boys to bits but I am not a very good mother. I have never had any control over my boys even when they were little they could run rings around me, but I do think I have managed to instil good values in them so that they are turning out to be good young men.

9. I intend to go to the gym today because although I have not weighed myself for months I know I have put on weight even though I have tried to eat properly. It is getting harder and harder to find clothes in my wardrobe that fit comfortably and I refuse to buy bigger sizes. I am still a couple of stone and 2 sizes smaller than I was before my divorce but even so 3 years ago I was a couple of stone and 2 sizes smaller than I am now.

10. All my life I have been a avid reader of books but since I began blogging I hardly ever pick up a book, I have 3 on the go at the moment, I have been reading them for months, in the past I would have read them in a couple of days.

Now I have to choose 10 bloggers to bestow this award on. Mei Del, Andrea Whatever, Rae, Cheekydani, Ronjazz, Having my Cake, Fat controller, Elaine, Nitebyrd and finally Wild Cat

Meme

I have been tagged to do this meme by EMMA.



Here goes:



1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning of the post.

2. Each player answers the questions about themselves in their post.

3. At the end of the post, the player then tags 5-6 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves them a comment, letting them know they’ve been tagged and asking them to read your blog.

4. Let the person who tagged you know when you’ve posted your answer.



1. What was I doing ten years ago?

Ten years ago I had just gone back to work after ten years being a stay at home mum with part time evening jobs. I was earning so little with this first job that by the time I had paid the child minder for having JA (aged 2) and my bus fares etc I was a whole £20 pw better off!! But I felt it was a stepping stone to something better. I was a wife, a mother, a taxi service to my family, but I didn't have a life of my own except those 5 hours each day when I was working. (I was a temp on a 3 month contract, I stopped working there 2 years ago after 8years).



2. What are five things on my list to do today?

a) Stay awake at work ........just about

b) check the bank in to see if I have any money.......done, I don't

c) visit mother before she goes to visit my grandmother........going after I publish this

d) Publish a post on at least one of my blogs ..............almost done .......there are several posts in the making

e) catch up on some sleep................soon



3. Snacks I enjoy?

apples, snackajacks, chocolate, cheese, scones



4. Things I Would Do If I Were A Billionaire?

Of course that would be my debts sorted, a decent house (nothing fancy just one thats right for me, oh and perhaps my boys too if they promise not to make a mess). Hire someone to look after

my housework etc. Take my boys on holiday, buy them a few treats and make the money goes as far as I can without being either a miser or stupid with my new found wealth. Get the surgery my dr says I need but cant get on NHS (tummy tuck for my irreparable abdominal muscle damage).



5. Three of my bad habits?

a)chewing the end of the little finger on my left hand

b) Doubting my own desirability

c) forgetting to take my HRT



6. Five places I have lived?

a) I was born in Essex where I lived for my first few months with my parents before moving to

b) Ringwood in New Forest (although I was too young to remember being snowed in with my pregnant mother in the winter of 1963) before moving as a 2 yr old to

c) A static Caravan site on the North Downs in Kent.

d) Growing up in the Kentish town on the river Medway of Tonbridge close to but not Tunbridge Wells (where I later lived when I met SF)

e) Moving to the South Coast in 1988 just in time to give birth to DC where I ahve lived for 20 years now.



7. Five jobs I've had?

a) kennel maid

b) sales assistant in sports shop

c) Insurance renewals Clerk

d)Hotel Receptionist

e) Sales Administrator



8. How did you name your blog?

my original blog was named after my battle to find the real me, I have found lots of different sides to myself along the way. My next blog was named after something my partner in the swinging world called us. My current main blog is named after the name I call myself (some think it is because of the song, but really it is down to 'N' because during the time we were together he associated me with the colour red. Red coat, red car, red skirts, red tops, red nails and lipstick.



I need to tag 5-6 other bloggers. I tag. Percy, Mulder, Gypsy, Jeff and Ron

since writing this I have read Percy's latest post and realise that it would not be appropriate to tag him just now so instead I tag LV ........(you can do it on an email and I will post it on here)



oh and btw my colleagues now know that I have been given responsibilty for Scotland, we have a new young man starting next friday working with me and BG. BG is being very negative about the opportunity to earn commission for some of the sales we make. In a day and a half I earnt about £12 in commission which although not much was a start (and that was just from 3 orders we have now been given more products to earn commission on). Oh well if she doesn't want to do it then that means more opportunity for me to improve my situation. If I just make £10 a day thats £200 a month on top of my salary.....I'm not going to turn that down when all it takes is an extra few minutes on a call.

Collecting things from other blogs

I had another award from VBF after I answered her meme on her blog.

Isn't she clever to make this.

It looks like I am collecting things see what I found waiting for me on Emma's blog

I have been tagged by Ro who is a blogger I have only recently begun to read. Thanks very much chum!! this is a Meme about sex so have posted it on Battle so as not to embarrass those of my friends who are not interested in this.

But weeks ago I was tagged by VBF to do a Meme but I had not got around to doing it so here it is.

Seven Random Facts about ME!!

1. For a while I was the chair person of our Town Football Club's Youth Division. Thre were 11 teams 8 boys teams and 3 girls teams.ranging from Under 10's to Under 16s. Whilst I was The Club Secretary Prior to being the Chair, I personally knew every child there and their parents. Less than a season after I resigned the club had folded. The people running it after I left didn't have a clue.

2. I experienced my first hangover (which lasted for 3 days) when I was on my French Exchage with the school. I turned 15 during the 2 weeks we were there. On the coach tavelling out there one of the boys had dared me to drink as much as him. He got drunk I didn't. So when we met up later in the week (we were not supposed to see our friends while we were there, but the french kids were friends so we did meet up). I remember we spent a whole day in this hut, lots of booze and smoking,Jimmi Hendrix and Santana playing on screen. By the time we got back to my exchange friend's (we detested each other) aparment I was out of it. I was then stuckin bed ill for three days. I was still drunk for the whole of the journey home.

3. I have smaller feet than most women. I take between a size 3 (36) or a size 4 (37) UK size (european I think). I have often had people comment on how small my feet are. This doesn't help when I want to buy shoes most adult shoes start at size 5. I can buy my shoes from the children's department (which are tax exempt) but as you may remember I like my high heels. Once many years ago I bought a pair of black shoes to wear to London for a social event. The heel broke but when I went back to the shop they didnt ahve any other suiable shoes in my size so they had to give me my money back.

4. I was bullied at school when I was 15. One of the girls decided to bully me because my dad was standing for election for the local council. This went on for months until one day I had enough and took an overdose of out of date asprins. It didn'twork and next day I we into school and when she began to bully me when I was on my own I fought back then went to find my teacher who happened to be with the head master. (princple) She never bullied me again.

5. I am a direct decendant of the man who owned the company that invented the toy balloon. When my mother was researching the family tree we discovered that my father's great grandad JG Ingram owned the patent for the toy balloon. I had grown up knowing that the family had owned a factory near Chigwell in Essex that manufactured rubber medical appliances and hot water bottles.

6. I have only ever flown once and that was for a day trip to lapland to see Santa 3years ago. we left home at 5am to get to the airport for a flight at 8am and arrived back home just after midnight. It was a lot of money for one day but it was so worth it. I will never forget the exhilaration of travelling at speed on a skiddoo across the frozen lake in the dark at 11am with snow coming down. Seeing my son and his little cousin playing atmaking snow angels was awesome too as was the Ice palace where even the tables and seats were carved out of ice.

7. I am totally in love with a man I ahve never met. Anyone who reads this blog knows about my Romeo. we have been wanting to get together for two months but his work has kept him out of the country for all but 2 days since 21 st February. Right now he is 5,400 miles away. Other times he is closer only a few hundred miles away but still on the continent so he might just as well be thousands of miles away. The lovely thing about this is that he feels the same way.