it only hurts when I cough

On Friday I woke up with a slightly sore throat, as the day progressed it got worse. Each phone call was agony trying not to cough in the caller's ear. Glass of water to hand was essential, a pack of maltesers helped too. I do crave chocolate when I have a sore throat as it eases the pain and it was clear that nothing else in the vending machine was going to be much help. By lunchtime I was begining to feel a little better (must have been the sinus capsules I had taken) but by the time I was ready to go home I didn't just feel crap but was told I looked crap too. Thanks I needed that!

Driving home I was thinking about an earlier email from The Man asking what I had planed for the weekend. I was contemplating suggesting we meet as the laugh would do me good. But by the time he called me I was feeling far too crap to consider going anywhere other than bed. I had treated myself to a tub of rum and raisin ice cream to sooth my throat. that worked but soon had me feeling sleepy ......................I think I overdosed on the rum flavouring.

Saturday I woke aching all over and feeling terrible but I forced myself to go out once I had taken more sinus capsules. I had to go to the local sorting office to retrieve the last of my recent batch of packages from ebay. Instead of going out and buying a coat from my mum I used the money to buy several. I now have 5 new jackets including one sheepskin and one leather and a watch for the money I would have got one coat for in the shops.

Visiting my mum I declined the obligatory cup of tea for a glass of water and more capsules. Finally the pain in my face began to subside but before I left to do my shopping I made a big mistake. When I say big I mean really BIG!!

'Mum I don't like your bathrom'

'lol why'

'I just stood on your scales ............they say that I am nearly as heavy now as I was at my biggest!!'

'which ones? there are two sets'

'the white ones by the radiator'

'try the blue ones under the wash basin'

I jog (notice I jog not walk) back up the stairs, find the old blue scales that I remember from the year dot. heave a big sigh of relief.

'thats better I lost a stone in 2 minutes'

still not good and I definitely need to get to the gym pronto but at least it isn't as bad as it had first seemed.

So now I am determined to do something about this added weight. It is a long time since I weighed myself but I knew I was putting on weight by how I feel oh and my clothes cutting me in half................I simply refuse to buy bigger clothes as that would be giving myself permission to be bigger.

I need to be more active.


Today I am feeling fitter than yesterday in that I don't ache but the pile of tissues by my side is growing as I cough and sneeze my way through the morning.


UPDATE

Perhaps it wasn't such a great idea to attack the remaing half of the divan that has resided outside my backdoor for the last 6 months. I need to get it removed and taken to the amenity tip, but it is too big for my car so needs to be broken up. I have given up asking the offspring who are not man enough for the job!

So this afternoon I set about attacking it with my heavy mallet. Although I didn't quite complete the job I did manage most of it before I became too weak to even lift the mallet. I was left shattered but then so was the bed. Perhaps now that I have done the majority of it ET can be persauded to finish it for me. Next is the old sofa that has been sitting there rotting for far too long. By the start of the spring I intend to have my patio clear of all the old tat that has been sitting there.

It wasn't long before I was asleep again. I am still feeling weak but pleased I did it. My stepper has also been pulled out from under the table.

Busy few days

Those of you who have been reading my blog in the last week will know that I was having a bit of a fling with ebay.

The result being


3 x pink skirts, 2 x red skirts, 1 x white flowered skirt, 1 x green skirt, 1 x beige skirt and finally 1 x brown skirt.


1 x cream satin blouse, 1 x see through black shirt and 1 x pink shirt


1 x red shoes, 2 x pink shoes and 1 x brown shoes


1 x rose quartz necklace and 1 x amber bead necklace

I have also done a bit of socialising this week..............ok so normally I am too tired to be social after a long day at work but with a week off I made the most of it.


Wednesday evening I went out for dinner with Lotto sssshhhhh keep it under your hat, don't go telling everyone, he finally persuaded me to meet up with him for a drink again, which then became dinner. Being in his company was pleasant but I did find myself wishing I was with Romeo instead.


Thursday afternoon I visited Harvey to help him complete a job application, he later picked me up to go for a drink and socialise with others from the dating site where I found Romeo. It was good to catch up with a few of the people I met last year. But I didn't really want to stay very late, neither did Harvey as he had an early start in the morning. We were chatting to one woman 'gold' who I think liked him and vice versa although he says she was hard work. They had met last month and she had even asked him out for a drink. I tried to give them space together, I didn't want people thinking we were a couple. It is odd going to the social events now that I am no longer in the market to be pulled. I text Mei a couple of times during the evening just to keep myself occupied. On the way home Harvey asked me why I am so good to him. He is a friend and I am always happy to help friends when they need it as long as he doesn't come on to me. He did comment that I was welcome to stay over at his place but it was only a joke as we both know the answer would be negative.


Friday I went out for lunch with my mum. we went to the pub where I had my wedding reception all those years ago. In those days we were very pally with the landlord and landlady who had been running the pub we frequented when we lived in Tunbridge Wells, just by coincidence they moved down here a week after I did. SF was the last customer to be thrown out at the end of their last shift at the pub in TW and the first customer waiting at their door when they opened for the first time down here. This pub is not easy to find if you don't know the area but has had a very good reputation for good food and for its history. A former England cricket captain did live in this road some years ago I have no idea if he still does. This pub was in fact two pubs one being 'The Lone Barn' had been transferred from elsewhere many years ago.


when we first began going there, there was a link between the two areas that was glass covered with tables and seating areas, now though it has been convered in keeping with the olde worlde style of the pub and a new kitchen built on the side of it. The food has gone more up market, but my salmon in puff pastry with roasted asparagus tips was delicious and the Almond, Honey and Apricot Cheese cake with thick channel Islandcream was devine. It did seem strange being in this place I ahve so many memories of and parts of it still look so familiar yet other parts so different.

After our meal I drove us around the local lanes, lanes I hadn't been alongfor years probably not since they had been used to film the popular 8o's series Howards Way.

Saturday saw me venturing into the North of London (the first time I have ever driven into London). It was fine except that my map does not show the names of the roads and I had no idea where to leave the North Circular or indeed where I was going from there so with Mei on the phone she guided me along until I found this crazy woman at the side of the road waving madly at me.

The rest of the weekend I shall blog about tomorrow so if you want to know how we got on you will have to come back later. It has been a long and tiring few days and now I am very tired.

I'm on holiday don't ya know

I'm on holiday this week and its fab

yesterday I spent all day watching the olympics, searching on ebay and blogging oh and from my position sat on my new bed I could see my boys and pals playing cricket on the green about 100 yds away.

I didn't even bother to get dressed I spent the whole day in my PJs which was wonderful, I don't think I have ever done that unless I'm ill. I felt so relaxed and content. Perhaps I should do this more often.

Today I treated myself to a visit to the hairdresser and had a catch up with 'my hairdresser' it was the first time she has cut my hair since last October. In December she couldn't cut my hair because she was too busy cutting my mum's hair then a few months ago her husband had a brain haemorage and was in a coma so she gave up work until he was better. I must say that by the time I left my hair looked absolutely fabulous. But it didn't last. Not long after this I was walking to my car ready to visit my mum when the heavens opened. I had my brolley bu both hands were full with things I was carrying. So my hair got wet and my lovely smooth straight hair became curly.








Although I hadn't told my mum I was going to visit her today she had a feeling I would and had some real cream chocolate eclairs to have with our cuppa.









After I had spent a couple of hours chatting to my mum about anything and everything including writing styles, she is thinking of going back to our creative writing classes. Now I am pondering should I do the same ......would be fun but could also be dangerous. Perhaps I shall do the belly dancing class instead. I went off to asda, first stopping at the bottle bank to get rid of all the bottles I have been accumulating. JA calls me an alcoholic but in truth 95% of the bottles are non alcoholic wine. Then it was a visit to an out of town business centre to collect one of my parcels. My pretty pink chiffon frill skirt has arrived. As has the pink samsung now I am not sure whether to keep it or give it to my mum as the phone I bought her for xmas has given up just like JA's one has (oh well I only paid £19 each for them).

I have been keeping an eye on the other items I had found on ebay. Since yesterday's post I have procured myself a rose quartz necklace, an amber bead necklace.












I also won a Randolph Duke reversible green skirt. Which then meant that I got another skirt at a great discount so I chose a Anttony Light Brown Mosaic of Love Skirt which I can't now find a picture of.



















I have bought these shoes for a mere £0.99 plus p+p

But I am not sure which of these shoes to go for




these sling backs currently at £2.50 plus p+p or these sasha court shoes currently at £5 plus p+p

Tomorrow I shall get myself to the gym and in the evening I have been invited out for a drink. somewhere in between I need to sort out my old clothes. Thursday I may even get down to doing some work then on friday I'm off out for lunch with my mum.

Then just in case you were not aware I am off to have fun with Fire Byrd aka Bollinger Byrd, collecting Mei Del on the way, there will be a fwe others there too. as far as I am aware there will be about 8 of us this time so who knows what fun we will manage to get up to.

If I'm really lucky I may even get to see Romeo at some point too.

which for some reason has reminded me that I was chatting tonight with LV about my latest fantasy. When I began writing it I had only the very first line in my mind, I had no idea who the characters would be or where the story would take me. When I got to the end I felt I ahd taken it as far as I could but later started building profiles in my mind for the two characters so perhaps I shall write more about them. LV seems to have enjoyed this one describing it as very hot. So if anyone else agrees perhaps I shall write some more. I had thought I had lost any inspiration to write these fantasies but maybe I am beginning to get my inspiration back.