Tonight as I began my drive home this track came on my radio. I have liked this song since the first time I heard it. But tonight I paid more attention to the words and made a decision I didn't think I would be able to make (or at least not for a long time).
The more I thought about it the more I knew it was something I had to do, it wouldn't be easy and I expect I shall cry before the night is out. To help me I have started on the bottle of smirnoff I had been saving for some unknown reason.
I have deleted Romeo's emails and his email address. I would have deleted the hundreds of text messages but last week my mobile phone died. I now have a brand new pink Sony Ericcson C905 but have lost most of the phone numbers and all my text messages and photos. Next I have to delete his photos from my computer, that will be the hardest part.
I am taking back my love. I gave him too much of myself and got so very little back. This doesn't mean that I have stopped loving him, it means I have made the decision to close the door. Even if he came back he doesn't deserve my love. I need to put him in the past stop hoping that one day the fairy tale would have a happy ending.
I know I will never be happy with anyone else all the time I was still wanting/loving/pining for him. I need to be able to open up my heart and let someone else in. I would have like to get some closure from him but it has now been 7 months since I last heard from him so that is never going to happen. Next week it would be a year since this happened.
I will never forget how that day felt, or how he made me feel, but it is time to put it behind me.

(((LIR))) Im proud of you, you DO deserve so much better.... and I still think he used you, only love is blind right :)....
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thanks Marmie
ReplyDeleteSometimes you just have to stop 'being there' and get on with your life x
ReplyDelete..... as one door closes, another one opens... fingers crossed!
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Good brave girl. Big hugs honey x
ReplyDeleteGreat title and great move. Go easy on the vodka, it is loaded with sugar.
ReplyDeleteI knew you would get there eventually and I am pleased to hear you are now.....you have done the right thing and I am very proud of you...(((hugs))) xx
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